Wednesday, March 21, 2012

The rest of my life...

When I was a kid I shared a room with my sister; in it hung a poster that said,

Today is the first day of the rest of my life

I really didn't understand it but through the years I have come to experience many days when I woke up and uttered those exact words to myself.  It's about doing away with the old and embracing something new.  It can be I'm going to begin drinking more water and make it a habit for the rest of my life.  Or it can be something grand like...with this ring, I take you to be my partner for the rest of my life.  Sometimes the first day is something not so pleasant like the first day you continue the rest of your life without someone you love.

As most of you know, I'm not one of those daily, weekly or even monthly regular bloggers.  I only blog when something happens in my life that moves me to get my feelings down on "paper" and share them in order to provide myself with a therapy of sorts.  Today is one of those days.  Today is indeed the first day of the rest of my life..."

Last night, I was perusing Facebook which can be a good thing or it can be very dangerous.  Last night, I guess you could say it was dangerous; for with my surfing came the certain knowledge that someone who has been a part of my life for a significant amout of time...well, let's just say it hurt.  It hurt really bad.  Not the kind of hurt where you shake your head and walk the other way but the kind that is like a knife right through you heart.  You know the kind that literally takes your breath away and you find youself sobbing and gasping for breath?  Yeah, it was one of those.  Had it been just one of them I would have passed it off as a mistake but when their partner did the exact same thing I knew it was intentional.

So I cried, I even raised my voice as I sobbed against my husbands loving arms.  Thank God for the love of a good man who is a virtual pinnacle of all that is right in my world.  Today, I awoke and again uttered those words to myself,

Today is the first day of the rest of my life

You see, I can hold my head high because I know I have done absolutely nothing wrong; the only thing I can be found guilty of is loving the above people and today, knowing how they feel about me I am finished.  I can stop.  Negativity only bogs you down and today I am free to live the rest of my life will I love them, yes because that is what Jesus commands us to do but will I allow them to have the power to hurt me?  Absolutely NOT!  Because guess what?  Jesus didn't say anything about liking everyone and I certainly don't like the way these folks have behaved.  Will I forgive them?  They are already forgiven; but forgiveness doesn't mean that I put myself in the same situation.  Because today I am crazy blessed...crazy blessed to be married to Teddy Don; crazy blessed to have three beautiful, smart and sweet girls; crazy blessed to have friends like you; crazy blessed to be able to wake up and start and for the rest of my life!


  1. Love you so much Dana and sorry you were hurt. Sending hugs your way my sweet friend.

  2. Thanks Michelle!!! Friends like you make it easy to get over when someone is not nice! Good thing is today I actually feel like a weight is lifted as the relationship has been one I had to really "work" at any way. They've saved me some effort. :)